not another irreverent pop-culture movie...

(deep breath). so i was looking online for new films/ movies coming to theaters. i accept that some of the more interesting flicks may not come to middle america, and i'm okay with that but wanted to check anyway. in my cyber searching, i came across a little piece entitled "Another Gay Movie." okay. (another deep breath). i've had a problem with this series of unimaginative, poorly made, spastic tangent movies from the jump. everything that comes to the big screen doesn't have to be a cinematic breakthrough on some level, but i would at least appreciate movies for conscious people. and i don't mean conscious like "in the know and aware"; i mean conscious like "awake in the f*cking theater!" come on! you can't be serious! is this because i'm not a t[w]eenager anymore? would i have paid $7.50 to see this crap years ago? (i honestly do not think so). it's a process of capitalistic copycat complementary regurgitation. not to mention, if one doesn't view these movies within the first 2 weeks of their release, then half of the references will be our generation's version of "dated." and they are self serving - if you haven't seen a great number of other bogus fad movies (and kept up with your celebrity news, i suppose), you won't even get half of the the poorly delivered jokes. for the record, i am not a stiff. i will let some stereotypes and ignorance prevail in my own mind for the sake of a good joke (probably more often that i should be okay with admitting). but it has to be a good joke. i will even be okay with a few pellets of BS in the mix for the sake of range (a little something for everyone). so the first... oh... 2 movies like this - okay, but it should have stopped there. now, people are using movies as vessels to spread their bass ackwards (and probably true) opinions of other people, cultures, etc and to perpetuate ancient stereotypes (and probably some new ones). the collective conscience is sensitive to this sort of thing, whether we want to believe that or not. the sad part is that this can go on forever. what's next? "Not Another Black Movie", "Not Another Independent Movie", "Not Another Foreign Film?" the creators of this mockery in the past had the audacity to call it satire, but satire is what? "irony, sarcasm, or caustic wit used to expose folly, vice or stupidity." they don't all hit such a high mark. so some have been wise enough lately (and perhaps honest enough too) to call their creations spoofs. much more fitting, as a spoof is "n. 1 nonsense, tomfoolery; 2 a hoax; v. 3 to deceive." well no kidding. here we are going to see "funny" movies and getting no more than the backlash to political correctness. who's being bamboozled now? (not so funny, is it?)...

and don't think you can pick them out by title either. remember "White Chicks"? "Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle"? too far back, how about "Little Man"?...

i don't mean to sound snobbish or full of myself; i'm just really concerned...

4 weddings and a migraine!...caution, random tangets ahead...

everything is an opportunity for growth. i've learned that getting married is no exception. i'm stretching myself as an event planner, organizer, PR person, family therapist, interior decorator, confection designer, woman, and on and on... effective communication is so key to all of these things. be tactful, but be direct. say what you mean and mean what you say, and being okay with the fact that everyone CAN NOT AND WILL NOT be happy with everything is a jewel of wisdom that no one planning a big event (or breathing for that matter) can be without. i am so thankful for the circles that jay and i move in, such beautiful, talented, warm-spirited people who are willing and able to help us - all we had to do was ask. watching things come into place is so amazing; this is one instance where i cannot give credit to one extreme or the other. it's not my solo effort and expertise getting everything done, but it's not because i throw my hands up and give it all to the universe to handle. we are working together through this thing (a very fulfilling partnership). i'm having trouble being at the focus of this because i'm so comfortable behind the scenes (even when i was on the stage, i was flanked by performers on either side so i was only in focus for a few minutes), but here again is a opportunity to grow...

life is moving so quickly! only one year since graduation from spelman, and i've known of 4 weddings, attended 2, have 2 friends traveling the world, have 2 sisters who've graduated this spring, a spelman sister who's bring a wonderful warrior woman life into this world, etc etc and so forth. trying to document even most of it would ensure that i have to miss a great deal. so it's a touch and go - a journal entry here, a photo there. i'm trying to coax myself into taking more pictures because moments deserve to be captured. so unhappy with what i believe to be a non-photogenic facade, i am quick to jump behind the view finder and not in front of it. but that is selfish; i always want pictures of the people i love and care about, but when they want my picture i weasel out of it saying stuff like, "well, let me take your picture. you'll remeber me because i took it" or "i'll write you something instead." bogus. this won't be an instantaneous transformation, but (as everything else) a work in progress...

i guess a should change the title of this post. i intend to go on a well articulated (and well deserved) rant about family and support and decisions and baggage, but in the grand scheme of things - the negative does not outweigh the positive. (that doesn't mean i don't get headaches though, i'm just saying). in the midst of all these life changes, i am so glad to have a family of artists who won't let me abandon my craft; they'll let me be slow about it - even neglectful sometimes, but never abandon. i thank God and them for that. they definitely get a dedication in the first book...

love(ing) al(l)ways...